Asking For Help

Today I did three things to move forward in my journey to lose weight and get healthy. 1) I tracked my food intake via FitnessPal, 2) I skipped the bread and the sugar, and 3) I reached out to my old healthy eating support group and asked if I could come back. They welcomed me with open arms and gave me so much love and support I just wanted to cry. I missed the meeting for this week, but next Saturday we will be meeting and doing our weigh in and I will be turning in my food journal for this week. I'm excited! I know I need the accountability and support of the group and even though I'm embarrassed about putting weight back on, I know it's exactly what I need. I kept telling myself I would go back when I'd lost some weight, but that's like an alcoholic saying they will attend AA meetings when they quit drinking. I am a food addict and I need help. I use and abuse food. It's my drug of choice. I self medicate with food and for a time I feel better but then my problems are compounded because I haven't dealt with the original problems that caused me to overeat and now I have guilt and more pounds to add to my problems. I know this in my head, but it's not enough to know something, you have to do something about it. I have to find a better way to deal with stress. Some people exercise, some people pray, some people find a hobby. I guess so far I haven't found a stress reliever that works for me. Maybe I need to explore different outlets until I find what works. Kind of like your kid trying out different sports until they find the one they like. All I know is I can't keep turning to food. It's killing me. So, here's to my first week back in the plan!